Collection: Clothing

The idea for the collection came from:

• my personal experience with anxiety and depression in the past few years

• and how observing the rose bush in front of my house survive the freezing cold winter last year gave me a more optimistic perspective on life


🌹 C’est la vie

The French expression for “That’s life!”

I felt powerless in the past few years as I was entering my 30s along with the pandemic.

I was completely lost and exhausted. I was stuck in a loop full of negative feelings. I would somehow manage to get myself out of it but eventually find myself back in the loop. At first, I felt very frustrated with these vicious cycles, but then I slowly realized that the negative thoughts/feelings kept coming back not because I am weak. They resurfaced from time to time to remind me to listen to them for they are part of me and my life. And as soon as I stopped trying to block them out, I started to learn more about myself and things that happened that led me to have those thoughts and feel those feelings.

What I have learned is that, these waves of anxiety will always come back and how I deal with them is up to me. I don’t need to run away from my problems because that’s what solutions are for. I just need to find them. “That’s life!”

🌹 La vie en rose

It made me very happy seeing my roses bloom when Spring came around because I’d thought they wouldn’t make it. I saw the leaves turned brown and the whole thing looked dead.
That made me reflect on life and the situation I was in. Things do get better in between my down times. It’s just sometimes when the negative thoughts take over, they are all I could think about and the happy moments start to slip out of my memory.


🌹 Sub Rosa (under the rose) adjective: happening or done in secret

Isn’t it exciting when we come to a realization of something just to realize some more?! The new perspective doesn’t mark the end of my journey to find and heal myself. It was just one of many stops needed on the way so I could rest and reflect. In between the highs and lows of life, there are always moments for us to catch our breath, do some inner work and prepare ourselves for whatever comes next. Sometimes these could be the loneliest moments we have to go through, but I think there’s beauty in solitary. It’s all about us having our own backs, working on ourselves (for ourselves), and no one else needs to know about it so one day we can bloom again.

- July 12, 2023 -